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Hell I'm gonna be me
Gonna be free
Walking on moonbeams
And staring out to sea
"Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love.
But I want, want, want to be your love,
Want to be your love, for real.
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love.
But I want, want, want to be your love,
Want to be your love for real.
Want to be your everything."
I do what I can wherever I end up
to keep giving my good love and spreading it around.
'Cause I've had my fair share of take care and goodbyes.
I've learned how to cry and I'm better for that.
Situations like this don't bother people like me.
I keep making sure everyone knows that I'm bigger than that.
But in all reality, I'm not.
And being honest and willing to take risks makes me look
like I've got it all figured out.
But I don't know if I can hold it together anymore.
You just keep on hurting me.
You are the last person I would've ever guessed.
Dang. This is retarded.
So, I'm stoked on life right now. I'm starting this 10 day cleanse which Whitt, Michelle, and Bonnie are doing as well. Basically I get to drink freshly squeezed lemons in 10 cups of water with a bit of organic maple syrup and cayan pepper tablets a day for 10 days. I also have this weird protein supplement stuff to go with it. This apparently means that I'm going to lose 15 -20 pounds in the process and then I have to go back to the health store and start a plan to maintain my weight. I'm going to start going to the gym regularly after that and hopefully by summer I'll have a super hot bod....haha. But seriously. Anyway that's my exciting news of the week. NO FOOD FOR 10 DAYS. Starting tomorrow. Yeah, that'll go over well with an Italian!
And when you hold me, I can feel you aching for it to be real.
Even if, you only hold me for a second.
We're always just a second behind.
We miss the signals when we're on time.
And we both know,
I'm your honey, not babe.
She turns to listen.
He looks at her.
She looks at him.
Inches away
Only inches.
Her eyes tell a story, he's been waiting to hear.
His face paints a picture, she's been longing to feel.
Inches away
The electricity.
He holds her hands and tells her she's okay.
She falls into his body of warmth.
Falling
Falling
In inches.
She looks up.
He looks her in the eye.
Inches away
Only a breath.
She turns and looks at the wall.
He remains looking at her face,
And he leans to whisper in her ear.
you're pretty much an idiot.
too bad it took so long for me to finally figure that one out.
and I don't know the words to the American Anthem. On top of that, I unfortunately do not have a piano on the ice rink, to check if I am singing in the right key or not.
This blows.
Ps. I do not like the way my face looks on a projected screen.
Bite me.
Kthx.
It's funny how much you learn about people when you need them the most.
And, when they know that there's nothing in it for them but just to be there for you,
so many people let you down, and those close friends that you're so sure of, seem to disappoint you the most.
Maybe I've changed. In fact, I know I have. I've found some of the pieces that are helping me on the way of becoming whole again, and that doesn't make me somebody bad. I'm still going to be here for all of those people that I promised I would - it's just hard when that promise doesn't seemed to be kept on the other end.
As much as it's disappointing, it's relieving to start seeing which people the world wants me to know.
And which people I am supposed to know for a short while, but are meant to teach me the most.
Say what you mean.
I don't care about how pretty the sky looked when it happened.
The sky never saved me from falling to the ground because gravity only works half the time.
And half the time you're asleep.
I don't understand what happened.
- Music:thank you - dido
is the one labelled 'backspace'.
and unfortunately, that word doesn't
only represent the eraser of my typed
words on public blogs, but it represents
my entire mindset.
- Mood:
indescribable - Music:cinder and smoke - iron and wine
